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ᴛʜᴇ ᴡɪɴᴛᴇʀ sᴏʟᴅɪᴇʀ ([personal profile] bracchium) wrote2016-05-08 06:13 pm
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c o n t a c t









желание
I know you are the answer, but I forgot the question.



печь
There will always be a lie in believe.



один
Whatever is static is dead.



рассвет
The world is too quiet.















sizeofyourbaggage: (all right good point)

[personal profile] sizeofyourbaggage 2017-05-18 01:36 am (UTC)(link)
[ It sounds like an awful idea, honestly. Selfish, maybe - definitely - but Sam doesn't know what he'd do without Bucky here. He'd much rather them figure this out together, keep going as they have.

Sam huffs out a chuckle as he squeezes Bucky's hand, thumb stroking over the back of his knuckles. ]


( It's not gonna change. Trust me, sunshine, there's nothing in the world that'll ever stop me from putting feathers in your hair and hiding glitter in your clothes whenever I feel like. Someone's gotta be here to sass the hell out of your dumb ass and argue about shit with you. ) [ He shrugs one shoulder. ] ( It's just about learning preferences. You like hot dogs and mojitos and you hate soup and don't like your face touched without warning. I like steak and wine and I hate lilac and can't sleep without someone I trust there. )
sizeofyourbaggage: (if you eat that sort of thing)

[personal profile] sizeofyourbaggage 2017-05-18 02:41 am (UTC)(link)
[ Relief echoes back across their connection, warm and light. Sam likes this thing they've got going, where they can bicker and argue and tease each other but also sit here like this, talking about things that matter. It's not just because Bucky's so much in his head that it feels empty without him that Sam wants him around.

He quirks a little smile when he picks up on where Bucky's thoughts are going, shooting him a look. ]


( I'm pretty sure the conclusion from that is obvious, man. )
sizeofyourbaggage: (if you say so)

[personal profile] sizeofyourbaggage 2017-05-18 05:47 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Sam waits, absently drinking some more while he feels more than watches Bucky process that. ]

( You want me to tell you why? )

[ It's half teasing, but mostly, he means it. They've got a... complicated history, and he doubts it's easy for Bucky to see himself as someone worth trusting. ]
sizeofyourbaggage: (thoughtful)

[personal profile] sizeofyourbaggage 2017-05-18 11:56 pm (UTC)(link)
( It's not just since we came here, you know, I wouldn't have had you sit behind me if I wasn't willing to try trusting you at least a little. )

[ And he didn't get a knife in the back, which might be low standards as far as trusting someone goes, but that was about where he was at with Bucky then. ]

( You had my back when we were fighting the spider guy, and you didn't have to. You let me in since we've been here, and you didn't have to do that either. When I gave you the coin - you brought me a new one, man, you know how many people would've picked up that I used it a lot and maybe still needed one? I know the lengths you're willing to go to keep me safe; just because I don't like them and I don't agree with them doesn't mean I haven't noticed and appreciated the thought behind it. Yeah, the Soldier's a part of you even though it's not who you are anymore, but we know what makes it come out, and we know how to stop it. You and me, we're stronger together. And it's- )

[ He cuts off, running a hand over his jaw and focusing briefly on their joined hands. ]

( Instinct. I know you'd never hurt me if you could help it. Your reflexes are good, your senses are awesome. After the Raft, I - well, I don't feel like I gotta stay awake to listen to footsteps when I'm with you. )
sizeofyourbaggage: (all right then)

[personal profile] sizeofyourbaggage 2017-05-19 04:19 am (UTC)(link)
[ Honestly, Sam doesn't like thinking about it, either. There's not very many people here that even know - pretty much just Bucky and Clint, although Steve's gotten flashes of it. It was Sam's call, and he'd make the same one again under the circumstances. But that doesn't mean what happened in the Raft doesn't get to him sometimes, that he doesn't hate what it means that he ended up in prison.

They've already had the argument about how none of that is Bucky's fault, though, even if Sam's not sure it actually stuck in there. He'll bring it up again later, maybe, but not right now.

He's dropped enough of his problems on Bucky for one night. Hell, he's dropped enough period, he knows all of that is gonna be a lot to unpack.

Sam loosens his grip a little, shifting his hand back just enough that though their fingers are still laced together, he can run his thumb over Bucky's palm, tracing the lines in his skin. ]


( So yeah, I trust you. And I trust that you're gonna appreciate the pitcher of mojitos I ordered for you. )
sizeofyourbaggage: (you know you wanna laugh)

[personal profile] sizeofyourbaggage 2017-05-21 08:05 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Trust can be a scary thing, really, especially for someone who doesn't think they deserve anything good. Maybe he should have waited a little before making his trust in Bucky clear - but he doesn't like hiding things from Bucky, and it's not like Bucky wouldn't have figured it out anyway, with how much they're in each other's heads.

He backs off it for now, giving Bucky's hand a small squeeze at that smile. Then he lets go so he can pour them both a glass from the pitcher, even though he's not quite done with his yet. He shoots a teasing grin at Bucky. ]


( Better grab one now, before you drink it all like my last cocktail. )
sizeofyourbaggage: (hey there)

[personal profile] sizeofyourbaggage 2017-05-21 10:51 pm (UTC)(link)
[ The continued contact sets Sam at ease almost as much as the the alcohol, and he leans in a little until their shoulders and arms brush together. Honestly, he wouldn't mind if Bucky drank the whole pitcher himself, but it's so much more fun to tease him about it.

Sam chuckles as he pulls out the coin Bucky'd given him, twisting it between his fingers while he holds it up. ]


( Flash it like this, but you gotta catch me when I'm without it. Which is pretty much just in the shower and when I'm in bed, so you might be outta luck for a while, sunshine. If you challenge me while I've got it, you're the one that owes me a drink. )
sizeofyourbaggage: (isn't he cute)

I SOMEHOW DIDN'T SEE THIS holy crap i'm sorry

[personal profile] sizeofyourbaggage 2017-06-07 03:14 am (UTC)(link)
[ Sam can't help swallowing roughly against the echo of emotion he can feel welling up in his throat, and he turns the coin over in his fingers again. He values Bucky's coin just as much - but he doesn't have to say anything for that to be clear. And they've had probably more than enough of this kind of emotional stuff for the day, so Sam lets it go when Bucky brushes it off.

For now. ]


( You sure as hell better not when you got a whole pitcher for yourself. I mean, assuming you can handle it all. )

[ Because what better way to steer the topic away from how much they mean to each other than by teasing the hell out of him for no reason? ]
sizeofyourbaggage: (wait and see)

<3

[personal profile] sizeofyourbaggage 2017-06-12 02:45 am (UTC)(link)
[ As good as it is to feel Bucky feeling things, there's such a thing as too much, and Sam gets that. Besides, this thing between them - it's not really tentative anymore, not by a longshot, but Sam still doesn't know what to call it. He could use a break from the heavier emotions.

He hums thoughtfully as he pretends to consider that, then shoots Bucky a little smirk, eyes warm and playful. ]


( Kinda sounds like I am, doesn't it? )
sizeofyourbaggage: (off the top of my head)

[personal profile] sizeofyourbaggage 2017-06-13 12:53 am (UTC)(link)
[ Good, that's what they should call it. And there ain't enough good in their lives, far as Sam's concerned, so he's more than happy to go along with it as well. ]

( I look like the kind of guy who'd go and make a challenge like that? ) [ Yes, Sam. Yes you do. ] ( What're you gonna do with it? )
sizeofyourbaggage: (wide grin)

[personal profile] sizeofyourbaggage 2017-06-13 01:47 am (UTC)(link)
[ Nah, Sam's pretty sure this was the best damn idea that's been had in a while. There's a quiet burst of laughter when Bucky drains his drink, pleased and affectionate, and he grins wide at what sounds almost like a chuckle. ]

( Look at you, sunshine, how you feeling? )
sizeofyourbaggage: (all right I dig it)

[personal profile] sizeofyourbaggage 2017-06-13 02:17 am (UTC)(link)
[ Now, see, this is just unfair. There's no way to find Bucky Barnes giggling and hiccuping and bumping his shoulder against Sam's and feeling warm anything but real damn endearing. Though since Sam was the one who challenged him into getting this way, it's probably justified. ]

( Warm's a good look on you. ) [ Warm's a pretty good feel on him, too, seeing as Sam's getting some of that through bleedover, and he takes a long swallow of his own drink. ] ( If it was up to me you'd feel warm all the time. )
sizeofyourbaggage: (hey there)

[personal profile] sizeofyourbaggage 2017-06-14 04:52 am (UTC)(link)
[ Bucky's hiccup inspires a slight giggle of Sam's own, and he covers it up by taking another sip. Warmth blooms beneath his ribcage, and he knows it ain't just an echo of Bucky's. By now the feel of his affection for Bucky is starting to become a familiar one. Getting something that's decidedly affection back is a little newer, but damn it's good. ]

( Hell yeah. Not sure which one you're asking about, but that's my answer for both. You're sunshine, only seems fair. ) [ There's the tiniest pause, then Sam grins again. ] ( See, and now I'm about one drink away from singing that. )

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