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желание I know you are the answer, but I forgot the question. | печь There will always be a lie in believe. |
один Whatever is static is dead. | рассвет The world is too quiet. |
желание I know you are the answer, but I forgot the question. | печь There will always be a lie in believe. |
один Whatever is static is dead. | рассвет The world is too quiet. |
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Bianca. Blonde. Blue eyes. 5'6". Ukraine. 1970s?
People he killed. People he should never forget.
Art was never his thing, but it's the least he can do.
With a sigh, he carefully sits on the floor beside the table and leans his back against the wall. He's almost knee-to-knee with Steve from how narrow the dwelling is.]
Targets.
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All of them?
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He could say he doesn't do that anymore, but he's already got evidence to the contrary that he can't ignore. ]
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Awkward.Bucky sits still and silent for a beat or two before he collects the compress from the table and offers it to Steve again. He can't tell if the weight Steve's wearing is due to grief or pain. Guilt boils through him again. He can't make this right, he shouldn't be allowed to either. Almost every single face on the papers didn't get the chance to do much more than beg or scream, yet here he is with a Steve so small he can't hardly hold himself up.]You should go back.
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You should come back with me. [ Brick wall. He's not going otherwise, no amount of arguing is going to change that. But he does accept the compress again, pressing it against his face. ] We'll talk about it tomorrow.
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Maybe he can fake it.
With another sigh, he slides off his jacket and stuffs it in his pack to use as a pillow.]
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The sounds of the city outside are a comfort, the lack of it on the Station had been so noticeable at first. Eventually, he drifts off. ]
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They begin the same as always: with a rising curtain of glass. Steam billows out onto the floor and cuts between moments of clarity. He falls, always falling, and then he's seated in the chair. Electricity sparks around him and his head goes fuzzy with agony. His fists clench but they can't pull at the manacles closed tight about his wrists. Everything he remembers is disappearing again, slipping down into the vortex. Russian fills the Siberian air and then his mind is crystal clear.
'Good morning, soldier.'
'Ready to comply,' rumbles from his own mouth in reply.
'I have a mission for you. Confirmed kill in ten hours. Steve Rogers, Captain America.'
He stands on the catwalk overlooking the glass belly of the hellicarrier, target across from him. The pistol slides out from his holster first, short raps accompanying each shot until the gun is knocked out of his hand by a shield. A knife follows but that, too, is rebuffed by the shield. Without options, his fury pushes through him as he tackles his target over the metal railing separating them from a ten foot drop onto support columns. They brawl closer and closer to the edge and he knocks his target down. He presses his limited advantage and finds himself crashing against the glass below.
He's found his pistol and he's shooting at the shield again, then the knife makes a return appearance, this time biting into his target's shoulder until he knocks the latter away. He dives for a tiny chip on the glass but is picked up by the throat.
'Drop it' a familiar voice fills his ears as his fingers clench tighter around silicon and aluminum.
His fleshy arm snaps and white hot fire burns through him. Bones break and his throat creaks at the pressure applied to his neck. Stay awake stay awake stay----
He's up again and pulls the trigger at his target, who stops and stumbles and his mission isn't complete yet. Not until... not until...
Steel rains from above, trapping him, but his target returns to his side, does his best to lift the column trapping him to the glass. Blood oozes from his target's wounds, but he strains all the same.
As soon as he's free, he attacks his target again. Fire dances around them, sparks fly, and he's launching assault after assault.
'You've known me your whole life.'
Metal demolishes bones, breaks blood vessels, cleaves tissue.
'Your name is James Buchanan Barnes.'
Another hit, broken eye socket, and his target stumbles back to pull off the blue helmet adorned with an A. Blonde hair is matted and his face swollen.
'I'm not going to fight you.'
It's not his choice, really. Bucky charges and fist after fist rains down upon the face so familiar and yet so distant.
'Then finish it. Cause I'm with you to the end of the line.'
Fire takes both of them.
Bucky awakes with a soft sound of distress, but his knees are scraping the floor, boots catch on one leg of the cot and jostles the occupant. He sees Steve's face, thinner, less swollen, less broken and bruised and purple and oh god oh god oh god.
He has to get out of here, he has to run.]
oh NO
The entire floor seems to shake as something scrapes against the floor next to his bed - not his bed, next to the cot. The hole in the wall Bucky brought him to. His shirt is soaked in sweat, heart pounding with the impulse to run as he sits up, tossing his legs over the side of the cot, but it's like a sound coming from another room, paper thin walls separating them. ]
Buck - ? [ His throat is dry, heart still thumping in his chest. ]
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He has to go. There's no second guessing it.
He doesn't respond to Steve's question and instead pulls the chair blocking the handle and turns the knob to leave, to move, to run. His right arm is numb, but that doesn't matter.]
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Stop, Buck - [ He's on his feet too, the room's small enough that he doesn't have to go far, nearly tripping over the jacket on the floor. ] - it's okay, stop.
[ The second stop reaches through the link with a clumsy, desperate sort of force, something caught between a plea and a command. ]
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I'm sorry. [ He hovers just behind Bucky, unmoving. ]
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A few seconds later though and Steve's following him right out into the street, the memory of the fight back overriding Bucky's need for space. A lack of training means his feet hit the pavement with heavy steps as he trails behind, but his voice is hushed. ]
Where're you going? [ He doesn't think Bucky has an answer, hoping that might give him some pause again. ]
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Steve didn't deserve the trouble coming to him.
He stops a few paces from the door, mind still buzzing with sensory overload and the excess adrenaline running through his veins,
He doesn't answer, but it's as much a reply as words would be: he doesn't know.]
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That really what my face looks like? [ His attempt at humor is weighed down again, but it's just about the only words he can muster right now that won't be another commanding plea for Bucky to come back inside. Better for both of them that he takes a moment, the past two days are finally catching up to him. The friend he's known almost all his life has a stack of papers covered with names and faces of people he's killed, coming from a future where Steve let it all happen.
They could match guilt for guilt if he weren't locking it down. ]
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His feet remain rooted where they stand a few paces into the street from the door, exposed and raw like twitching muscle under a microscope.]
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I still need to show you how to block people. [ It probably won't help if he's unconscious and trapped in a nightmare, but it's better than nothing.
And maybe more of a reason for Bucky not to bolt right this second. ]
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The remnants of the nightmare, however, cling tight to the back of his head. He needs to get a hold on himself if he wants to keep from hurting Steve again, but he doesn't know how to do that.
He takes a glance at the silent street around them before turning back toward the hole in the wall.]