[ The times in the past when the programming's reacted to his presence and turned on him, Sam's had to fight to stay, dig in and maintain his ground. But now - it's not a conscious decision to stay in Bucky's mind anymore, and being there isn't anything that requires effort.
The programming tries to uproot him and he can't leave, can't do anything but flare up his wings as the programming's claws rip at them, feeling the metal flex and bend and sizzle. The struggle is holding on to who he is, grabbing every piece of Bucky - of himself - of them both that he can and -
He can't remember how to separate, can't feel out what's him and what's Bucky and what's the shared space that's neither and both of them, where they connect and where they're distinct.
Sam doesn't fight back. The Soldier's hit connects with his jaw and pain flares through him, enough that it probably would have knocked him out with out the symbiote's boosts. And even though his ability activates immediately, seeking to transfer the injury, it might as well have knocked him out.
He's too caught up in the mental confusion to react physically, not when his ability is ready to take care of it. ]
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The programming tries to uproot him and he can't leave, can't do anything but flare up his wings as the programming's claws rip at them, feeling the metal flex and bend and sizzle. The struggle is holding on to who he is, grabbing every piece of Bucky - of himself - of them both that he can and -
He can't remember how to separate, can't feel out what's him and what's Bucky and what's the shared space that's neither and both of them, where they connect and where they're distinct.
Sam doesn't fight back. The Soldier's hit connects with his jaw and pain flares through him, enough that it probably would have knocked him out with out the symbiote's boosts. And even though his ability activates immediately, seeking to transfer the injury, it might as well have knocked him out.
He's too caught up in the mental confusion to react physically, not when his ability is ready to take care of it. ]