[HYDRA doesn't need to exist to continue to hurt Bucky in new ways. He gets a flash of Siberia, something he hasn't remembered before. When he woke up with a metal arm, tried to fight, and found a needle plunged into his guts. Another time they pulled him from the ice, when he- no, the old Bucky- told them no and earned more needles in him. Before the chair, before they could wipe him, they tried conditioning him in other ways.
Bucky knocks over a couple people on his way to anywhere he can clear his head, but all he can feel are those needles under his skin, the chemical burn in his veins.
He tries to remember why he said it, why he said no, as heat sears through him, suffocating. His resolve is quickly crumbling in the face of the flashback or whatever it is. He needs something cold, ice water, anything.
His words are suddenly gone, his resistance melted, and he only offers the mental equivalent of a disgruntled sigh.]
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Bucky knocks over a couple people on his way to anywhere he can clear his head, but all he can feel are those needles under his skin, the chemical burn in his veins.
He tries to remember why he said it, why he said no, as heat sears through him, suffocating. His resolve is quickly crumbling in the face of the flashback or whatever it is. He needs something cold, ice water, anything.
His words are suddenly gone, his resistance melted, and he only offers the mental equivalent of a disgruntled sigh.]