[ It's easy to blame stuff on the symbiote. It's not like a huge part of it isn't due to the symbiote, especially the closeness they've developed so quickly. It's overwhelming even for Sam, he knows it's gotta be worse for Bucky. Except if Sam's being honest with himself, well. He likes Bucky, and he knows he would have even without the symbiote.
He's probably known since the fight against the spider kid but look, he doesn't want to be that honest with himself.
One day - probably soon - they're going to have a real talk about what Bucky deserves, more than just Sam telling him that he's worth it during the adrenaline crash after a fight. That is one of the few things that Sam knows with absolute certainty isn't part of the symbiote. He didn't have the damn thing when he spent two years looking for him to try to help him, when he stopped in part because he was pretty sure Bucky didn't want to be found, or when he went up against the Accords. Which, all right, wasn't really for Bucky, but it definitely contributed to his decision.
Because Sam's got a feeling that the gratitude he's feeling even through Bucky's walls and Bucky telling him he doesn't need to has a hell of a lot to do with what Bucky doesn't feel like he deserves. But Sam won't comment on it now, because his goal is to try not to add overwhelming Bucky more. ]
I know. But I want to. I appreciate you being around, all right? Don't worry, man, gimme a sec and I'll be back to calling you Snowflake and putting feathers in your hair.
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He's probably known since the fight against the spider kid but look, he doesn't want to be that honest with himself.
One day - probably soon - they're going to have a real talk about what Bucky deserves, more than just Sam telling him that he's worth it during the adrenaline crash after a fight. That is one of the few things that Sam knows with absolute certainty isn't part of the symbiote. He didn't have the damn thing when he spent two years looking for him to try to help him, when he stopped in part because he was pretty sure Bucky didn't want to be found, or when he went up against the Accords. Which, all right, wasn't really for Bucky, but it definitely contributed to his decision.
Because Sam's got a feeling that the gratitude he's feeling even through Bucky's walls and Bucky telling him he doesn't need to has a hell of a lot to do with what Bucky doesn't feel like he deserves. But Sam won't comment on it now, because his goal is to try not to add overwhelming Bucky more. ]
I know. But I want to. I appreciate you being around, all right? Don't worry, man, gimme a sec and I'll be back to calling you Snowflake and putting feathers in your hair.